Boy don’t I know it. When I start to let go of some of the things that got me to long terms of abstinence. What did I do? I got lazy. I stopped praying and meditating. I let go of a few crucial things that helped me stay clean. What happened? I was back in the food and miserable. The things I was doing: praying and meditating, reading literature, contacting other oa’ers, listening to OA and AA speakers, kept me clean. I have to remember this disease that it is cunning, baffling, and yes powerful. This is so true. If I want to overwhelm myself, I think about the fact that I will always be an addict. If I want to be real and smart, I just say One Day at a Time.